I'm Done, but I'm Good

Do you ever write something down and regret it later? Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite, but then again life is always changing. So then I guess it's alright for my opinion or feelings to change. Right now I am feeling pretty content with myself. I'm done. No I'm not done with life, and this is no suicidal note friends. Come on it's me? I'm done playing the infamous game. What infamous game? The ridiculous girl guy game. The game of Love.

No friends, I'm not crying at my keyboard. I'm not feeling hopeless like it's never going to happen. I'm just pulling myself out of it. I need a break. I'm tired of getting mixed signals and reading into things that aren't there, and right now there really isn't anyone making me want to pull myself in. I do however have a confession. Those who know me know I would never do this, and before I tell you I think it best for you all to know I'm not desperate. I'm not. I'm curious. So do you want to know? Okay here goes. Two weeks ago I signed up for online dating! Shocked! It's been interesting. I haven't paid for anything yet, so I really can't see who those 6 messages are from and who has sent me a flirt and who really wants ME! Ha ha. It was a spur of a moment kind of thing my roommate and I took different dating sites and will probably switch and sign up for the other one later.

Oh by the way I moved out, It's been a month. A good month, however I still have stuff at my folks house. Anyways to continue on. I am still hopeful and still content and living life. That's the important thing. To live life to the fullest and I am going to do my best at that! Mine as well accomplish some amazing things while I'm on this train ride :)

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